[Review] Complex by Manda Ringo

This is the first time that I’d shed a tears (no I shall say, I cried!!) due to Yaoi more like shounen ai manga entitle : Complex by Manda Ringo.

PLEASE NOTE, MY RANT CONTAIN SPOILER (LOTS OF THEM) XD

I must admit, that at first I was kinda not interested to read it due to the shota scene and the arts. I’m even tempted to stop reading it. However, I can’t seems to do so and somehow my mind said, bear with it… you’ll not regretting it!
It was right!
I am not regretting to ever read this…wonderful and beautiful manga.
This story is about 2 childhood friends, Tatsuya and Junichi whom loves soccer and always together from elementary school until high school. Their love blossoms when they both in middle school. First having physical contact when they in high school. However, that morning when Tatsuya went home, he is involved in accident and his injured his leg thus resulting of his retirement in soccer club. Their relationships steadily grew until they both hits university. Nothing seems to be wrong, but this time, their relationships known to others. People accepting them (their friends). The story begins to be moving to their adulthood, where they both now are working.
The relationships is still hidden from their parents so Tatsuya’s mother kinda push her son into marrying someone.
Like I said before in my cappuccino’s manga rant, I hate cheater!! DX.
To put the story short, Tatsuya bring someone he knew (his colleague) whom happens to be Lesbian, but when they both in one room, sleeping together, they just did it and she got pregnant. Being a responsible man, Tatsuya suggesting them getting married. Junichi was okay with it! He was okay with it until the wedding day getting nearer! I admit, I shed a tears! I couldn’t handle this kind of story. It’s always gets the best of me.
After that day, Junichi left from Tatsuya’s side, quitting his job…well there’s this going on, but I’ll skip and then he settled working in a gay bar. Little by little, Tatsuya getting accustomed with his life, his family, his wife and kid, and slowly forgetting about Junichi. Until that time comes.
I will just skip that!! it’s too long~~ xD
Lets just say, the wife died due to cancer, Junichi’s back to Tatsuya side because of the wife request and their family knows that they are gay! Well, after that, it was about their son story, but I’m not gonna rant about that.
This manga is totally remarkable. This is the plot about life, what we look in reality, what may happen, what will happen, and what is happening…
It’s like watching drama series. You watch them when they still a little kid, up to when they starting middle school continuing to high school. Afterward, the university and adulthood. You witnessed the life they had to face and inner conflict they had to endure/handle with. At first, I never want to see Junichi gets back to Tatsuya. I even curse Tatsuya kindness to be able to accept his man back to his life. But then I knew…this probably how love works. But i’m a woman who can’t forgives easily… So I might still be dense about true love(?) LOL. When seeing them together… I couldn’t help but think.“yeah…they deserves each other.”
Reading them getting old together still loving each other… I feel so blissful. I do!
The last part of the manga, well…Tatsuya leave Junichi..and once again, he leaves him first. Junichi must be lonely, he was 83 that year. That’s when my tears started to flow and I end up crying…

“After you lived 80 years, and your partner suddenly dies, still no tears come out. It’s lonely of course. but it doesn’t seem anything more than him going a little earlier. no matter what you do it’s not like you can care for me yourself and if a person has to live feeling sorry, then it’s better to jut die. Tatsuya was a lucky man. He died nice and cleanly and even had people to tend to him later (<—he is alone, parent are no longer alive, no kids, no family. Tatsuya and Kenkun are his only relatives left) When I die i want to go like you, Will you come to me?”

This is the beginning of my tears to start flowing (and now it did too) LOL I know. I’m sentimental, but can’t help it. I think it’s beautiful.
Well, what I wanna say next is probably a huge spoiler, but I spoiled the plot already so i’ll just go on.
I think, his prayer comes true when at the ending a little Tatsuya came to him and urged him to play Soccer with him. At first, Junichi thought it was his grandson… but when he realized it was Tatsuya… when he held that hand, he becomes the child too. I really don’t know if he die… but he did said to the little Tatsuya that he was late.
It touched my heart.
This manga has touched my soul too. Makes me think deeply about life (not that i haven’t before…i did always) and where will my life leads me too. Who will I spent my life with? Will I end up being alone? Will I ever had daughter/son/grandchild? This questions is popping out when I read the ending of this manga.
It has such a beautiful touched!! I truly adore this manga plot!~ (well starting the 2nd volume tho’ xD)
This feeling I had is the same as when I watched Samurai X movie, where Kenshin and Kaori died…I cried, HARD!! Dx

anyway, end of my ranting…more like narrating xD *is blowing her nose*
I seriously need to stop getting sentimental over a tiny things…geez….